qarrtsiluni

I woke up at 12:30 p.m. and sat on my bed. I emailed people and ate cereal and that took three hours because I took my time. When I finished I didn’t know what to do so I emailed some more people.

“All I’ve done today is email people and eat cereal,” I emailed someone. It was 4:30 p.m. and I showered. I put on clothes. I lay on my bed and put on sad music and my hair was wet and I felt lonely.

I got up and went to a reading at a bar and ate salad. I ordered fries and said, “I’m starving.” My friend’s friend said, “Why did you order salad then.” I wanted to ignore her but we were looking directly at each other. Everyone else was staring at me. I said something about bread and a few of them laughed. My friend was nice to me and I liked him. I said, “I’m going to the library,” and we said goodbye.

Outside, I thought I saw someone I knew and I felt afraid.

In my room, I lay on my bed and listened to music. “I cannot fall in love, I cannot fall in love, I cannot fall in love,” said the music. I turned the volume down and thought about tomorrow.

Written by Tao Lin of Reader of Depressing Books